Wednesday. End of CNY break.
Didn’t go anywhere. Didn’t plan to. The car broke down as a punishment for
being too lazy to plan anything for the break. The misty Wednesday morning
turned drizzling as the morning traffics ‘stop and go’ like a clockwork. Somebody
got smashed down in an accident along the way as the morning rush came to a
crawl. I didn’t look or try to figure out why or who….the morning blues seemed
to make everything silent like you turn the sound off your TV. A drive to work felt like a long drive to nowhere. Work
is always burdensome no matter how you look at it. Maybe for a few days we can
pretend that the work is our passion,
our hobby or whatever but sooner or
later it will come down to just “Darn! Am I stuck here or what!”. The gloomy sky and the sound of raindrops
make the day more depressing. I really want to go back and enjoy a cupper
with wifey ,chit chat with my daughter and son, pat my cat and just look at my
wild garden……and see the day goes by and me growing old with my family at the
side. Now I know the reason why grandpa and grandma used to avoid travelling
afar, at this age we treasure things closer to home.
I left early for home. Leaving a
lot of work unfinished; the report, staff evaluation, the PFI planning etc. The
heap of things to sign and approve just piling up. Never-ending chores that
have started to annoy me. But it’s okay because that’s how I work, when things
get tough I would withdraw and do something else. Most of the time it would
eventually get done by the time it is due. No problem. The PFI planning is the
most challenging task so far. I don’t find it difficult but needs some time to
get it going. The number of lecturers to fill up the teaching positions at PFI
campus is almost ready. With the help of KPP, we manage to come up with the
numbers; now those numbers must be translated into a list of names. I reckon by
next week we can finalize the list and get it approved in a meeting.
It’s gonna be difficult for
everyone involved, yes, I agree to that. Change is always a challenge. And
change also is inevitable wherever you are. When the top management said when mobilizing
the lecturers to our new PFI campuses please not to break a family, take the wife away from
her husband or move the mother from her children, I raised my middle finger… a sign
of frustration. The sweet talk won’t help at all, it won’t facilitate change
but instead makes things very difficult. I paused and took a breath and
promised to myself that this won’t create stress in me that will eat my life
away. No way, will do it my way with my own pace.
A lady came into the office
looking very nervous. O yes please have a seat….it’s about your application to
extend your study leave….we would like you to consider another option. Before I
finished my sentence she just broke down. Felt very awkward as to why I put
this lady in such a terrible situation. All I want to do is to be fair to her
as well as to myself and the whole system
of values and beliefs. The talk went on for over an hour with all the
drama that you don’t really want to know the detail. In the end she refused my
suggestion and insisted to proceed with her application. So I failed to
convince her about a better alternative. I guess for me to champion the art of leadership is still
far way off….better luck next time.
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